A Nice, Long Weekend

I took work off on Friday because I have been having so many severe headaches for the past two weeks. I decided it was time to go back to physical therapy to see if the headaches were a result of a nasty neck. They are - my neck is full of knots and the muscles are very tight all as a result of stress. I went to PT once in May but hadn't had to go back since January. I guess the end of all hospital stays finally sets in and then my neck has issues. I'm really greatful for a very good physical therapist, Von Hill. I may have to go back in once more to get the muscles to finally really let go, but now I can handle the headaches. So I stayed home on Friday. Work has been very stressful for the past couple of months and I figured I needed to get away from it and rest for a day.

I didn't end up resting, but what I did was not stressful. It was just what a doctor might have ordered. I fixed a meal for a family in our ward that I did not know. I made pumpkin cookies for our family and made homemade chili. I worked on some quilt blocks for the YW in our ward since they are making a quilt to go along with a tree for the Festival of Trees in honor of Ammon. I learned how to texture the bathroom ceiling with a machine Hal Shelly brought over and then finished the painting in the downstairs bathroom. I cleaned the bathroom all up and now it's all done and looks great.

I took Ammon on a walk on Saturday much to his dismay and I played games with him for an hour or so Saturday evening to help cheer him up. I actually didn't do anything earth shattering, but I had a day like I used to have before I went to work full time. I had some time to do something for someone else. I was able to think about something other than the rush, rush, rush of getting home, getting dinner, getting laundry done, paying attention to Ammon and barely saying hello to Jim or Kaitlin. As busy as I was on Friday and Saturday, it was a stress reliever. The headaches are still there, but not as bad and I think the solution is to find ways to keep doing what I did over the weekend.

There is no way on earth that women can have it all. That is a myth. If there is to be quality of life and if there is to be service to others, then something has to give. I need to find ways to serve more because the little I do always makes me feel happier and more fulfilled. I wish I didn't have to work outside the home. I can go to work without dread or tears, but home is really where my heart is and that's where it should be.